Alejandro

She had a habit of becoming friends with men she was totally attracted to.It might have been her way of making sure that she can be with the guy even if she won't have the guy. A habit was really a hard thing to kick and she knew that oh so well.
It felt like the other guy all over again. But, she preferred to not know better. Anyway being smart was not fun all the time.

About this new friend, he was as hot as the rest. A man you walk down the street with and you are proud because you know every woman wishes they were you and every man hates that he looks as he does.
She liked him and she would have loved to have him like her that way as well. But, as he history repeats itself, he looked at someone else.Though she had to admit this time was different because he did not make the first move, B did.
How can you want the wrong ones all the time, she thought to herself.

So when she had that he and B had done nothing, she was hopeful. When B left she was excited. On instructions of her friend, she messaged him just to keep in touch. They talked a few times. She always had to initiate these conversation which was disheartening. Quite frankly to say hello first all the time kills a woman's spirit very fast.

The wanting faded but the heart and the mind are into cruel jokes sometimes and that is when occasional cravings come in. And then back to a person you can not like.